From the heart...

Lord, I know that I always complain. I don't feel like praying before I eat, leave the house, or go to sleep. But, I thank you for always providing meals for me. I'm overweight. But, I eat everyday and my children have never knowingly missed a meal. I always complain that I am too exhausted to get down own my knees to pray before I fall asleep. But, I have never been raped, kidnapped, or without a place to lay my head. I forget to pray before I eat or leave the house. And praise God, Jehovah, that my kids have never been kidnapped, raped, molested, killed, persecuted, or anything else. How could I be sooo ungrateful for the fulfilling life that you have granted to me. The tuition that you've payed and provided. The annoying parents, who genuinely care about me, and have never been abused or maliciously attacked (sexually, verbally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually). Thank you for my mom. She thinks that I am still 2 yrs old. But, thank you that I have a mom that wanted me, no matter what situation she may have been in during this time. I am here now. Thank you Thank you Thank you.


In Christ's name I pray. To God be the glory forever and ever. Amen

Top 10 Rules for Being Human

I received this in an email. ENJOY! 

10 Ten Rules for Being Human

Rule One - You will receive a body. Whether you love it or hate it, it's yours for life, so accept it. What counts is what's inside.

 

Rule Two - You will be presented with lessons. Life is a constant learning experience, which every day provides opportunities for you to learn more. These lessons are specific to you, and learning them 'is the key to discovering and fulfilling the meaning and relevance of your own life'.

Rule Three - There are no mistakes, only lessons. Your development towards wisdom is a process of experimentation, trial and error, so it's inevitable things will not always go to plan or turn out how you'd want. Compassion is the remedy for harsh judgment - of ourselves and others. Forgiveness is not only divine - it's also 'the act of erasing an emotional debt'. Behaving ethically, with integrity, and with humour - especially the ability to laugh at yourself and your own mishaps - are central to the perspective that 'mistakes' are simply lessons we must learn.

Rule Four - The lesson is repeated until learned. Lessons repeat until learned. What manifest as problems and challenges, irritations and frustrations are more lessons - they will repeat until you see them as such and learn from them. Your own awareness and your ability to change are requisites of executing this rule. Also fundamental is the acceptance that you are not a victim of fate or circumstance - 'causality' must be acknowledged; that is to say: things happen to you because of how you are and what you do. To blame anyone or anything else for your misfortunes is an escape and a denial; you yourself are responsible for you, and what happens to you. Patience is required - change doesn't happen overnight, so give change time to happen.

Rule Five - Learning does not end. While you are alive there are always lessons to be learned. Surrender to the 'rhythm of life', don't struggle against it. Commit to the process of constant learning and change - be humble enough to always acknowledge your own weaknesses, and be flexible enough to adapt from what you may be accustomed to, because rigidity will deny you the freedom of new possibilities.

Rule Six - "There" is no better than "here". The other side of the hill may be greener than your own, but being there is not the key to endless happiness. Be grateful for and enjoy what you have, and where you are on your journey. Appreciate the abundance of what's good in your life, rather than measure and amass things that do not actually lead to happiness. Living in the present helps you attain peace.

Rule Seven - Others are only mirrors of you. You love or hate something about another person according to what love or hate about yourself. Be tolerant; accept others as they are, and strive for clarity of self-awareness; strive to truly understand and have an objective perception of your own self, your thoughts and feelings. Negative experiences are opportunities to heal the wounds that you carry. Support others, and by doing so you support yourself. Where you are unable to support others it is a sign that you are not adequately attending to your own needs.

Rule Eight - What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. Take responsibility for yourself. Learn to let go when you cannot change things. Don't get angry about things - bitter memories clutter your mind. Courage resides in all of us - use it when you need to do what's right for you. We all possess a strong natural power and adventurous spirit, which you should draw on to embrace what lies ahead.

Rule Nine - Your answers lie inside of you. Trust your instincts and your innermost feelings, whether you hear them as a little voice or a flash of inspiration. Listen to feelings as well as sounds. Look, listen, and trust. Draw on your natural inspiration.

Rule Ten - You will forget all this at birth. We are all born with all of these capabilities - our early experiences lead us into a physical world, away from our spiritual selves, so that we become doubtful, cynical and lacking belief and confidence. The ten Rules are not commandments, they are universal truths that apply to us all. When you lose your way, call upon them. Have faith in the strength of your spirit. Aspire to be wise - wisdom the ultimate path of your life, and it knows no limits other than those you impose on yourself.

- By:  Cherie Carter-Scott

Maryland 2013 Individual Artist Award

Individual Artist Awards for Maryland Residents

The next deadline is July 27, 2012. Awards will be announced in February of 2013.  The 2013 Individual Artist Award application is open for Maryland individual artists practicing within these disciplines:       

Fiction

Theater: Solo Performance 

Visual Arts: Media/Digital/Electronic Arts Visual Arts: Painting  

Visual Arts: Works on Paper     
For detailed eligibility instructions and guidelines, please review the FY 2013 Individual Artist Award Guidelines.  

Applications must be submitted through CueRate, the electronic grant application system. To apply, visit the MAAF web site and follow the CueRate instructions. 

Prior to the grant application deadline, there will be three webinars on how to apply via CueRate. Registration is required to participate in the webinars. Please review the schedule below and call (410.539.6656 ext. 101; TTY: 1-800-735-2258) or email Ann Turiano to register for a webinar. In your email, you should include: 

1. Name2. Contact information--day/evening phone numbers and email address; and
3. The date and time of the webinar for which you are registering.   
4. Please contact MAAF two weeks ahead if you have special needs.
     
WEBINAR 1: June 22, 2012 | 10:00 AM - 11:30 AM   
WEBINAR 2: July 11, 2012 | 2:00 PM - 3:30 PM     
WEBINAR 3: July 14, 2012 | 10:00 AM - 11.30 AM  
 
Those applying for an IAA must use CueRate to submit grant applications electronically. MSAC and MAAF offer CueRate/Digital Image webinars for IAA applicants. 
All information about applying for an Individual Artist Award, including grant information, eligibility and application guidelines and the CueRate webinar schedule, is available on the MAAF web site.
Please note that registration is required to participate in the CueRate/Digital Image Webinars. Individuals who register will receive an email with instructions on how to join the webinar. Please contact MAAF two weeks ahead if you have special needs.
For questions or more information, email Ann Turiano of the Mid Atlantic Arts Foundation, or call her at 410.539.6656, ext. 101 TTY 1.800.735.2258 or 711.
The Maryland State Arts Council (MSAC) Individual Artist Awards (IAA) Program awards grants to Maryland artists through an anonymous, competitive process that encourages and sustains the pursuit of artistic excellence across the state. The program is administered by the Mid Atlantic Arts Foundation.

For Students: New Websites to Visit

Harvard Career Boards:
http://www.ocs.fas.harvard.edu/students/careers/consulting/groups.htm

National Urban League Job Board:
http://iamempowered.com/departments/jobsnetwork

Women in Cable Telecommunications are looking for Fellows

Fellowships for women:

All applications must be submitted online no later than 
5:00 pm (Eastern), Friday, June 22.

For your convenience, we have provided versions of each application in Microsoft Word. We recommend that you download these and compose your responses offline, then return to the website to submit your application(s) by copying and pasting your text into the online form. Save the completed Word documents for your reference.

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Cheryl Greene FellowshipThe Cheryl Greene Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee and offers a stipend of $800.

The recipient of the Cheryl Greene Fellowship is selected based on the applicant's ability to most effectively demonstrate how she has helped the advancement of women in the workplace.

• Applicant must be female.
• Applicant must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application.
• Applications must be submitted through the WICT website. Feel free to use this form to draft your responses prior to entering the information online.
• You do not need to be a WICT member in order to apply, however you will need to create a free account on our website if you are not.
• If you are an existing member, you will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password.

Download the application in MS Word

Click here to apply online

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Lucille Larkin FellowshipThe Lucille Larkin Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee and offers a stipend of $800.

The recipient of the Lucille Larkin Fellowship is selected based on the applicant's ability to most effectively demonstrate the value of the contributions they have made to WICT and the industry as a whole.

• Applicants must be current, active members of WICT.
• Applicants must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application.
• Both men and women are eligible to apply for this Fellowship.
• You will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password.

Download the application in MS Word

Click here to apply online

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June Travis Fellowship

The June Travis Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee, travel and hotel costs.

The recipient of the June Travis Fellowship is selected based in part on his or her ability to demonstrate how the WICT Leadership Conference will help him/her gain new management and leadership skills and enhance his/her range or level of expertise.

• Applicants must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application.
• Both men and women are eligible to apply for this Fellowship.
• You do not need to be a WICT member in order to apply, however you will need to create a free account on our website if you are not.
• If you are an existing member, you will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password.

Download the application in MS Word

http://www.wict.org/careerdev/awards/fellowships/Pages/default.aspx

Internship Center for Maryland Residents

Are you a Maryland resident or DMV visitor looking for an internship? Check out the following link for information:

http://www.internshipcenter.mhec.maryland.gov/StudentsSearchPage.asp

Women in Cable Telecommunications

Fellowships 

WICT offers three fellowships to the WICT Leadership Conference. Please read the criteria for each fellowship carefully to make sure you are qualified before applying. Qualified individuals may submit applications for all three fellowships if they wish. Visit the 2012 WICT Leadership Conference page to read more about this year's event. All applications must be submitted online no later than  5:00 pm (Eastern), Friday, June 22. For your convenience, we have provided versions of each application in Microsoft Word. We recommend that you download these and compose your responses offline, then return to the website to submit your application(s) by copying and pasting your text into the online form. Save the completed Word documents for your reference. Cheryl Greene FellowshipThe Cheryl Greene Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee and offers a stipend of $800. The recipient of the Cheryl Greene Fellowship is selected based on the applicant's ability to most effectively demonstrate how she has helped the advancement of women in the workplace. Applicant must be female. Applicant must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application. Applications must be submitted through the WICT website. Feel free to use this form to draft your responses prior to entering the information online. You do not need to be a WICT member in order to apply, however you will need to create a free account on our website if you are not. If you are an existing member, you will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password. Download the application in MS Word Click here to apply online Lucille Larkin FellowshipThe Lucille Larkin Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee and offers a stipend of $800. The recipient of the Lucille Larkin Fellowship is selected based on the applicant's ability to most effectively demonstrate the value of the contributions they have made to WICT and the industry as a whole. Applicants must be current, active members of WICT. Applicants must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application. Both men and women are eligible to apply for this Fellowship. You will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password. Download the application in MS Word Click here to apply online June Travis Fellowship The June Travis Fellowship covers the WICT Leadership Conference registration fee, travel and hotel costs. The recipient of the June Travis Fellowship is selected based in part on his or her ability to demonstrate how the WICT Leadership Conference will help him/her gain new management and leadership skills and enhance his/her range or level of expertise. Applicants must be working within the cable telecommunications industry at the time of application. Both men and women are eligible to apply for this Fellowship. You do not need to be a WICT member in order to apply, however you will need to create a free account on our website if you are not. If you are an existing member, you will need to log in to the WICT website using your WICT user name (your email address) and password. Download the application in MS Word

Scholarship Update: Thurgood Marshall College Fund

The Thurgood Marshall College Fund's Walmart First Generation Scholarship is due June 15, 2012. Scholarship is for the amount of $6,200 for one academic year. Visit www.thurgoodmarshallcollegefund.org for more information.

Why I need you all to believe

Have you ever heard of Barrington Irving? He is the 1st Black pilot to fly solo around the globe. Do you know that you can achieve anything in your heart?

I never in my mind thought that I would be a college and scholarship blogger. I have been MIA for a while. I pursued a second degree in African American Studies at the University of Maryland College Park. But, while many students are looking for jobs, I am organizing teen health summits for Maryland's health department. I am flabbergasted! I am usually the youngest person working fairs or in the office. And, I take it as a badge of honor. My life's mission is to help people, especially young girls. To Christ be the glory. He has taken me from a depressed teenager to young woman poised for greatness.

A young woman with a grrrrrreat (in my Tony the Tiger voice) and supportive husband and two great little girls! So, don't tell me that you can't do it! I know you can do it. The question is "Will you do it?" I had both of my children within a year during my collegiate career. And I finished! I've traveled the world, from the Dominican Republic to Italy, speaking and conversing with young women.
Everyone has challenges and fears. Few women are able to stop hiding from their fears and face the challenge head on.  Many of us are not living. We are broken and not really living at all. The reality is you are beautiful and worth living life.

Women and Girl's Conference in D.C.

Today is March 10. It is National Women HIV/AIDS Day. Washington's Xi Omega chapter of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated hosted a Women and Girl's Conference at the Catholic University of America. It has been a good conference so far. Shawn Yancy was the guest speaker. There are seminars on teen dating violence, HOME, finance, effective communications, estate planning, bullying, and personal branding.

I was honored to escort my sister in law Kai Bear to this conference. She never heard of Alpha Kappa Alpha, which is kinda cool. So, I got to tell her a brief overview of the women's organization.

It is a sea of pink and green. But, I was excited to see a HU alum in the building from the School of Communications. It was detailed, on time, and organized. PLUS! Best part of the conference is the cute pink bags given to the participants.

Press Towards the Mark

       Wow. I received word via my brother that Whitney Houston died. It was one of those situations that I expected but not now. I am shocked and at loss of words, because my children do not know the sound of one of the greatest voices of this generation. It is only february and so far, Don Cornelius and Whitney Houston has died. Both are deaths that not only ROCKED the black American community, but the greater American community.
      This is a sad, extremely sad day. My thoughts and prayers go to the Cornelius and Houston families.

The sad thing is there have been many deaths in my personal family. I pray that I become more serious about how I spend my life. I want to ensure that I value my worship and time. I am worth more that a government check or a pension check. I'm worth more than a selfish man or woman monopolizing my time. The best thing for me to pursue my time and effort is pursuing Jesus Christ. I need to read more. My new theme song is "Press towards the mark." When I don't feel like kneeling to pray. I will press towards the mark. Thank you Lord that I have knees to kneel before you and a bed in a home to thank you for. When I am in a rush to pray, because I'm late into getting in the car. I will press towards the mark, because the Lord blessed me with a car and a job to be in a rush to go to. I want my attention span to go outside of tangible items.
        I went to GIANT (supermarket) and I was so happy to have a lil' pocket change to get all the food that I wanted. I was thanking God for all the money I have. Went to the cashier and a man with special needs was bagging my groceries. I never thought to thank God daily for my mind. So, I remind you all that you have no control over many things. But, Thank God in heaven that HE sent HIS Son Jesus Christ for you and me. I can't believe that HE loved me that much.

Life Is Just A Minute

Life is just a minute—only sixty seconds in it.
Forced upon you—can't refuse it.
Didn't seek it—didn't choose it.
But it's up to you to use it.
You must suffer if you lose it.
Give an account if you abuse it.
Just a tiny, little minute,
But eternity is in it!

By Dr. Benjamin Elijah Mays, Past President of Morehouse College
Listen to this message by Pastor Hawkins, Super Bowl Sermon




http://www.highcalling.org/scmedia.php?type=mediaplayer&loc=www.highcalling.org/media/media/mediaplayer.php&id=201202050202134AF863

"Press Towards the Mark" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L81FapMFUo8

Are you an Undergraduate Student looking for a summer experience?

As we head into February, many undergraduate students are looking for a job, internship, or worthwhile experience. Columbia University has a free summer program for minority (I honestly hate that word to lump up everyone who is not an Anglo Saxon Christian Male) students interested in Public Health.

According to the website: 

"THE SUMMER PUBLIC HEALTH SCHOLARS PROGRAM (SPHSP)

The Summer Public Health Scholars Program (SPHSP) is designed for undergraduate students to increase interest and knowledge of public health and biomedical science careers. SPHSP is a partnership between Columbia University College of Physicians and Surgeons, Columbia University College of Dental Medicine, Columbia University School of Nursing and the Columbia University Mailman School of Public Health. Together they represent the broad spectrum of public health practice. SPHSP grant funding was awarded by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), Office of the Director, Office of Minority Health and Health Equity (OMHHE).

The program is designed for undergraduates in their sophomore or junior year, and recent baccalaureate degree students, who are undecided about their career goals and who have a minimal GPA of 2.5. The program includes Public Health course work at Columbia University; hands-on field experience and immersion in a diverse, economically disadvantaged urban environment; seminars and lectures with public health leaders, and mentoring by faculty members, ensuring students exposure to the breadth and importance of public health as a career option.

Program Offering Include:

SPHSP is a ten week summer program that begins May 28, 2012 and ends August 3, 2012. Program offering include:

• Orientation: One week Orientation at Columbia University Medical Center. During this orientation, scholars will be introduced to their mentors, their field placement sites and the field of public health. During the second week, students will participate in a one week Orientation at the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention IN Atlanta, GA.
• GRE Preparation Course: Students will participate in a GRE Preparation course provided by Kaplan
• Field Experience/Mentoring: Scholars will be paired with health professional mentors of various health disciplines in a public health setting. Each of the selected students will be interviewed by the Program Coordinator to determine the most appropriate placement. Students will work under the guidance and supervision of their mentors, 3 days a week for eight weeks, gaining direct exposure to the practice of public health.
• Field Trips: Scholars will have the opportunity to go on supervised field trips once a week to various communities throughout the New York City metropolitan area to observe public health interventions and programs in operation.
• Academic Enrichment: Scholars will attend 3 lectured base courses one day a week for eight weeks. The courses are: 1) Introduction to Public Health, 2) Introduction to Epidemiology and 3) Health Disparities and Cultural Competence. The courses will be facilitated by Columbia University Medical Center faculty from all four health science schools. Scholars will work in small groups with their Teaching Assistants to discuss practical application of class work. Students will work on current health problem or issues using “real” case studies. Lectures will be held at Columbia University, College of Physicians and Surgeons.
• Stipend: Stipend will be provided to all program participants.
• Travel: Each scholar will be provided with round trip travel.
• Housing: Housing will be provided to all students.

Program Eligibility

• Students who will have completed at least two years of college at the beginning of the program
• Recent college graduates (after April 2011) who have not been accepted into a graduate program
• Program Students with an Associate degree must provide proof of acceptance into a four-year institution
• African American, Hispanic/Latino, Asian American, American Indian/Alaskan Native, Native Hawaiian, Pacific Islander, people with disabilities, and economically-disadvantaged individuals are encouraged to apply.
• Minimum GPA of 2.5

Application Guidelines

To apply for admission into SPHSP, please complete the application by no later than Tuesday, February 14, 2012."

God speed and good luck! 
I have included the weblink below. 
http://www.oda-ps.cumc.columbia.edu/programs/about_sphsp.html

My Fellow Beautiful Naturals

After shaving my hair in 2008, I realized that I never knew how beautiful I was. I'm not pompous. I don't spend hours in the mirror. I walked around with my head held high, even when I did not feel attractive. My mom always called me her beautiful brown baby. But, I never felt that inner feeling of contentment with my physical being. I knew that my body was boom bam plow! lol. Just kidding. But, I never looked at my face and hair and said "Gorgeous you are from the beginning of this world and gorgeous you will be to the ends of this earth."

Guilty Pleasure

We all have our guilty pleasures. I, like most people, like to conceal that one thing that embarrass us. For me, that guilty pleasure is "Love and hip-hop." I really hate to like this show so much. I don't like it enough to buy cable to watch it. But,  I like it just enough to sneak to watch it after dinner.  Am I the only person with guilty pleasures?

We all have them. Some pleasures come and go with the seasons of life. Others may seem to haunt us through many facets of our life experiences. I'm not ashamed to admit that I have a guilty pleasure. But, I am also not fearful of letting it go. I know those girls on that show are not examples of the "Virtuous Woman" found in Proverbs. But, I, J'aime, enjoy looking at craziness to make me feel a little saner at the end of a long stressful day. I don't to pay for it, but  I enjoy looking at it. 

For My Fellow Students...

Education is a great predictor of future income. Many wish to continue their education past high school. But, it is a daunting experience, especially for first time students. So, here are some quick tips: 

1. Take ALL classes seriously. Getting an A in a stupid class is still getting an A. If you get a C in a stupid class, that you acknowledge is STUPID, then how does that make you look? HMMMM....

Grades are the great distinguisher! Believe me. I've seen students take remedial classes to achieve a 4.0 GPA and receive more scholarships than honors students with a 3.0. I am not encouraging you not to challenge yourself. I am challenging you to choose classes carefully. Plan according to the school you wish to attend. 

2 Once in school, look up special programs. Ronald McNair is an EXCELLENT program, especially at the University of Maryland. Graduate school applications cost an arm, leg, and toes. McNair program gives students graduate school application waivers and fellowships (which you do not have to pay back CHI-CHING)

3. Volunteer in academic offices: If you have a good personality or decent work ethic, volunteer at your school with a teacher that has either attended or taught at the school that you wish to attend. This may not be ideal in some situations  (i.e. out of state). However, some students wish to attend a school that is a town over. Volunteer once a month. People are less likely to reject people that they know. 

SIDEBAR: People who know you will reject you. I previously stated that they are less likely to reject you. 

4. Do not FACEBOOK Stalk people. I cannot explain this enough. If you are scared not to make friends prior to college, FB is not the way. They track you. Use Twitter. That way you see where they are hanging out. And, you can search what people have to say! People tell all of their business on social media: I got this award or this scholarship. Google it, then apply for the same award the following year. BINGO!

5. If you attend a state funded school, chances are your delegate, senator, city council, mayor, governor, Congressman, and state legislature all have scholarships. Call around, email people. Don't pester them. But, don't take no for an answer. They receive taxes to do their job. You are a citizen and have a right to receive help to fund your education. 

*Maryland: go to mdelect.net to find your delegate/state senators all give scholarships and you can apply for all of them $500-$1500 per year

6. Do Research: research helps you become closer to professors and looks great on scholarship and graduate applications. 

7. Don't limit yourself to government loans. Look at international, national, state, local, and private scholarships. There is money for every one. Even at my church there is a scholarship. But, most students don't ask. 

I am providing these tips in the hopes that you will use them to your advantage. 

Just the Two of Us

Sometimes i forget how quickly time goes by ...John and I have known each other since 2004 and married since 2006.

What makes being married to john so much fun is the actual FUN. I hate being sad. I just dont see the point.

We have fun at the supermarket.

We have fun at KJ's house! We have fun making fun of KJ and CJ!

We used to travel more. But some blue and white cellular company *cough* takes up our weekends. They really need a better company culture. I see why there is such a low retention rate.

We even complain about ppl together and enjoy it.

For many years, I was more into John than he was into me. Then God turned the ties. Then he was more into me than I was into him. I like the latter better.

Now, we are more into our children, then into the childish games of who likes who more.

So, if you see us making funny faces, it's because we are working on US!

I graduated with my family by my side. This is truly my favorite picture (even though my hair was JACKED). Jalise was the baby I wanted and Jordan was the baby that John wanted. I am pro-life, because I was told to abort my children, because they didnt fit into the plan that my family and friends had for me. I won't pretend like I didn't consider it, because I couldn't imagine how they'd fit into my plan. Those two are the BIGGEST blessings that I could have ever had.

Thanks Poogie for helping me pay for school! Also, being there for the many SCLC events! Un-official SCLC member. Love you.

God bless you for working. Lawd knows I can't stand a man that doesn't work. I enjoy laughing at your Nigerian/Jamaican/British accents that make no sense at all!

Happy New Years Babes!

Remember ya'll a good marriage=blesses a community.
A bad marriage=problems
a marriage without Christ is no marriage at all!

2012 New Year

Wow I can't believe that this is 2012. I am rededicating myself to this blog. I am also reshaping my life. 2011 was AMAZING!
I graduated from the University of Maryland College Park Go Terps!
I started work at BETAH Associates! I love them ;)
I went to Higher Calling Ministries for New Years *smile* highercalling.org
My fellow Rawlings Fellows Tokunbo introduced me to p4cm.com Passion for Christ Ministries *smile*
I finally spent time with one of my besties Berna!!!! *SMILE*
Now I did hit a low. My mom and I are rebounding on our relationship. I hate to see people hurt. But, I dont like people hating on me. But, we are working on it.
 I have to be careful who I let lay hands on me. This woman affiliated with my family touched me and I felt a spirit on her. SPOOKED me half to death. NO LIE.
But, I had issues remembering all of my passwords for my emails. I have too many accounts.
In 2012, I will do whatever it takes to get the blessings of God. I tried following people, it didn't work. God can change lives, and I love the feeling of being close to His spirit. I know some people will say "What the heck are you talking about?" I'm looking for a blessing that money can't bring. I'm looking for a high that weed cant bring. Im looking for a buzz that alcohol can't bring. I'm looking for blessings for my children. I'm actively seeking my blessings at the altar.
I am seeking FORTITUDE! I can't do things for other people anymore. I want to be Christ centered. When He moves, I move. So, if I am not moving towards you, then you know why. Peace chicken wings!

*Thank you poogie for proofreading my blog.lol